I must admit now that it was certainly the destiny that made me watch this movie because the final moments of the movie completely shook me to the core. And yes, i am not referring to the very obvious dual between Potter and Riddle but the death of Snape and the revelation of his betrayal followed by the truth of his loyalty. For me, that was the end of the movie. I didn't care about the remaining part of the movie for i knew what was going to happen. I was devastated, simply devastated. I felt my eyes getting red and moist and mind the grew heavier with every second passing by. Every effort to hold myself went in vain and the moment came when i came face to face with the the very moment from which i have been shielding myself for the past 1 year.
THE VAULT OPENED.
The vault of emotions which i thought i had burned down an year ago stood there opened vomiting out every emotion which i never wanted to face in my life ever again. Every emotion stood there naked in front of me and getting consumed within me.
During those 4 minutes I relived every second of the 4 years that we spent together that i wanted to forget for the rest of my life. I stood there covering my face not understanding the connection between the love of Snape and what it had to do with me affecting in such a manner. Finally went to wash my face, but the moment i came in front of the mirror, i was totally taken aback. Never up till now I had seen my eyes getting red to such magnitude. But the worst was about to happen. I suddenly felt saying to myself loudly, words coming out nowhere, which i had never came across before in the most idle state of my mind.
"The vault should've been burnt down"
"I should never come in the way in her life"
Why? Why did these words appear out of nowhere. I do understand the touching scene had definitely made an impact but what does it have to do with these words? Even if i and try and relate with the scene, Snape, as i read an article today, loved the woman silently for 24 years till death. What does it have to do with me. I can fool around people but not my soul and heart for i know, i have never been the best of partners and maybe i can say she left without giving a second try, still i hold myself responsible to a large extent.
But yes, the scenes touched me in the manner that i could relate with Snape holding the dead Lily in his arms and crying out loud as I cried out loud after finally realizing the meaning of love only when she parted ways.
I related with the scene with Snape saying "Always" as I saying that out loud and locked out the emotions in the vault, never to look back again.
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